For Christmas and to give all my presents. Went a little over board on boyds.. But gaige and nicks are cute too! Along with my girls presents! I just love giving presents (: so happy me nick and gaige are back to where we used to be. Hanging out everyday is refreshing (:
Today I’ve been thinking how dang lucky I am to have these two girls. No matter what, they have been there. AND I will always be there for them. Even if it means just running over a chocolate bar (; I love these girls more then anyone will ever really be able to understand and I know they came at the perfect time for a reason. Although Sabrina moved, it’s showed me how much you can gain a friendship with someone so fast. PLUS she’ll be backs soon (: What I am trying to say is I have no idea what I would do without having these girls. Always there to put a smile on my face, tell me their stories and just make me feel welcome. I am so grateful for them and I hope that they know that because It’s incredible how close i’ve come to these two. I love them and support them through everything and anything and wish I could see them more often. BUT after my play, Phoebs, I’ll be with her lots more (: And once Sabs is back, of course I’ll be with her too! Love you girls!
Gotten a new piercing. Dyed my hair. Ended a relationship. Started a new relationship. Been on a long car/bus journey. Passed an exam. Met someone who’s now an important part of my life. Cried on someone’s shoulder. Had a massive fight with a boy/girl . Received flowers. Had a Valentine. Written a letter using pen & paper. Gone to see a therapist. Been prescribed medication by a doctor. Read a really good book. Gone to the zoo. Spent too much money on unnecessary things. Travelled by train. Cried over a member of the opposite sex. Spent the day out in the sun getting a tan. Slammed a door out of frustration. Had an anxiety attack. Babysat for a friend’s child. Had a BBQ Gone to the fair. Gone bowling. Seen a film at the cinema in 3D. Gone on a date. Been the only sober one on a night out. Helped someone home after they had been drinking. Stayed up all night. Talked on the phone for over two hours. Supported someone who’d received bad news. Watched some kind of live sporting event. Read an entire book in one day. Bought a DVD the day it was released. Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week. Cried as a result of exam stress. Met some incredible new people. Gone to great parties. Fallen backwards off a chair. Broken my glasses. Worn a watch for the first time in years. Cried over someone in my past. Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet. Thrown up. Cried over a film. Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boy/girlfriend. Fought with someone in public. Been in a relationship for a year or longer. Cried in front of someone I adore. Lost one of my closest friends.
Although this makes no sense, it's my mind on a page.
I wonder how you can tell two people they are the most beautiful girl in the world.
Or you can say every word by memory twice.. but to someone new. It breaks my heart on both sides. Yes, people can find someone new. But I believe their will always be that one person that sits in the back of everyones head. Every one has one, I don’t doubt it.
I feel lucky to have every known someone so heartfelt and loving as you. But I wonder now, was it real the first time? Or is this exact things you shared with me, with her, the real one? It’s a scary thought, loosing someone. A friend, a love, anyone. Loosing people is scary for me especially. I want the people who mean most to me to stay, no matter where life takes us. Weather you have moved on, I still want the friendship you promised we would always have. Although it’s an eye opener for me, people aren’t always just going to wait around for you. And I never thought of it that way, I just took it for granted. I’m so grateful for the people I have in my life now and all the amazing people but it doesn’t mean I don’t miss past memories.